One could think of a lot of possible factors of unhappiness at work. I just can’t pinpoint which among the many factors could be the reason of my unhappiness. Could it be compensation? Company benefits? Work hours? Workload? People I work with?
And I also have to consider the “perks” that may compensate the factors that may cause me unhappiness. Out-of-town or out-of-the-country trips. Bonuses. Quarterly commissions. Hand-me-down stuff from bosses. Free lunch. Free ride. Gadgets. Network expansion thru clients. And flexible working hours above anything else.
When you don’t think you’re happy, you probably aren’t.
I don’t want to remain unhappy.
But I also don’t want to be ungrateful.
I’m not sure if I can still waste another two years to convince myself that I am happy with my work. But if I leave work now, where will I go? What will I do? I don’t want to throw more of my early twenties to the throes of foundation work. And I also don’t want to be a bum and a sucker of my parents’ and boyfriend’s hard-earned income.
This is what happens when you’re given a long holiday break. You have more time to ponder on things that really matter.
